according to anna

absolute nothingness

Ugh. I am working at the lab. I don’t want to be here. I’ve got some things on my mind that i am worried about. I need to stop trying to make everyone else happy. Its just hard to stop. And its not just that…I think too much about everything.

I am going to change my blog again soon, but i’ve had a hard time coming up with a new name. any ideas?

Wednesdays are such long days for me. I work in the lab from 9-12 and from 12-6. Today i was able to get some homework done, which is good. I think a bunch of us are going out tonight. Hopefully, my motivation level will go up, because right now i just feel like having a relaxing evening at home. Tomorrow will be nice though, because I don’t have to be anywhere until 11am. I think my independant study may slow down a little bit…just in time for my senior project to speed up.

Heroes of the day: Sarah -for getting me an awesome deal!!!
and Wayne -for trying to make me feel better.

CIS 591

My proposal was accepted!! 100% YAY!

rotator

thanks to Shep for the pic rotator!

needing a nap

Lots of stuff happened since my last post. This weekend I focused myself on getting some work done, so that i wouldn’t be stressed like i was this week. I did get stuff done, but I don’t know how much of a difference it made. I worked on my web dev homework off and on all weekend, and never got it done. at 12:30 last night, i said, “fuck it” and went to bed.

I’ve been spending some time in the library and I wish that I could study there more often. You feel productive just being there. I had my first experience with the moving staircases as well. very cool, but I wonder how much something like that costs.

Saturday night, I went to the Piano Bar. I hadn’t been there before, so it was kinda neat. It was cool how they would take requests of any type of music. For awhile, a bunch of drunk soccer moms were dancing on stage. While this was the last thing anyone wanted to see, it was a little amusing. If I had to go back though, I would make it a shorter trip. Being there from 10 to 1 was a little long.

Some exciting stuff happened this weekend as well, but I won’t go into detail yet.

Its funny how some people will really surprise you. It seems like of all the people in my life, i am gradually starting to understand less and less of them. Its kinda sad. Some people you used to be able to connect to very easily, seem a lot more complicated than before. I wonder what the difference is. Have i changed that much? or has the other person? or perhaps it is a mix of the two? i don’t know. Other people however, are surprising me in a different light. I should have given them more credit all along.

i need a nap

the longest day of the semester by far

Do you ever just have one of those insanely long days where all you want to do is go home and crawl in bed, but everything seems to be preventing you from doing so? When i woke up this morning, i was happy and content. Currently though, i am feeling pretty miserable. This morning I met with one of my teachers to start my independant study. I thought that taking an independant study would be pretty easy and not take up too much time. I was wrong. I am going to be doing research, but i expected that. What i didn’t expect is having to have research ready in 2 days (by thursday) or to have to meet with my prof every week to show my progress. This makes me wish that I would have taken Bass Fishing or something instead. After I met with my prof, I immediately started to worry about how i am going to get this research done by thursday since i have a lot of things going on this week. I tried not to stress to0 much and went to work, ate a quick lunch, and went to my classes. As soon as I got out of class, i hauled my ass over to the union to help with the Phi Eta Sigma membership drive. I stayed there until 7, when i ate some bearfare in the union, met matt, and hauled our asses over to Mel’s apartment. She has been having some computer problems. I was working on it yesterday and made the mistake of installing the recommended updates (which included Service Pack 2), which then prevented the computer from booting up at all–even in safe mode. Matt and I got there at 8 and tried everything we could think of to get it to boot. While trying just about everything that google suggested, Mel came up with the following comic:

Finally, we made some progress using this solution. I knew that SP2 could be bad…but i had no idea it could be this bad. Success! We got it to boot! But by the time we installed some antivirus, it was getting late. We started installing SP1, but it started to hang at the end. At 1am, we left–hoping that SP1 would continue overnight. It was after 1 am before i saw my room again.

Gosh, i am so stressed right now, and sometimes i think a little crazy. I’ve gotten some bad news the last couple days: Nicky has been in and out of the ER, and Skyler’s great aunt just died.

In addition to that research for my independant study, I have management homework due on thursday. I work all day tomorrow, then have 2 meetings that won’t get over until 10 or later. My research is limited on the internet. I need to go to the library, and fear that i may only have 2 hours tomorrow night before it closes. man, i am such a home-body. If i am gone too long from my room it starts to stress me out, which isn’t good considering i am usually already stressed out about something. I try to do my best with time management, but this semester, i may have to do better. Now it is almost 2 am. I have 4 mountain dews in me because i plan on staying up and working on my management. I fear what the rest of the semester will be like. I just want to crawl in my bed and cry.